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Heart In Remission

by Caitelen

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1.
Heart In Remission The world is spinning Where is the referee I'm a loser winning I'm a Kingdom refugee Who put out the fire Where is the smoking gun I got a dark desire But I'm chasing down the sun Darling I'm down at the deep end I'm caught up in the feeling I'm going down with this ship I'll be dancing on the ceiling With my heart in remission What is the bounty For a fugitive on the run I need a remedy For this fear contagion You've got a heart for me I've got a new heart for you I see myself as you see me It's the Son that we're looking through (To the other side, to the other side of love) Darling I'm down at the deep end I'm caught up in the feeling I'm going down with this ship I'll be dancing on the ceiling With my heart in remission Darling I'm down at the deep end This is more than just a feeling This is the start of the healing I'll be dancing on the ceiling With my heart in remission
2.
Meet me by the big tree Where the vines entwine in bark Meet me under cover Of the branches open arms I was meant to love you Since the first light touched the sky We were never meant to Go alone through this life Now you're mine Meet me by the river Where we drink and thirst no more Wash me in the water Let your words be like a balm I was bound to hurt you You are bound to let me down We were never meant to Have it all figured out We're learning now Love is not perfected By our efforts or our deeds Perfect love's reflected When we're falling to our knees When we're tearing at the seams We are strong when we are weak We are broken, we are free Broken we are free Broken we are free
3.
I'll leave the door unlocked So you don't have to knock I consider you more than a friend Let's put a record on This is our favorite song We don't know all the words but we still sing We don't have to say a thing In this comfortable quiet This is why I love you I'll settle for these days Of consequential faith You and I have lived a million lives The things we thought we knew The fragments of our youth We're wiser but we're still just children too We don't have to say a thing In this comfortable quiet This is why I love you I love you I love you
4.
Without You 04:00
Too much wine Too much of a good thing's no good Dance the line With the ghost of you still in my blood Spin our favorite song But it sounds all wrong Without you After dark All the fireflies light my mind You feel so far It's hard to be the one left behind You haunt me every night Still I wake to life Without you I wanna hit rewind but if I could I never buy a ticket to the past All the bad, the good, the in-between We made the most of what we had Looking to the Son Sad things come undone There'll be time to grieve But I won't always be Without you Without you Without you
5.
Can you feel the sun Bleeding through the shutters of your soul The heart's undone Waiting for the one Unafraid to lose it all for love When will he come We are tethered to the earth Holding breath for heaven like balloons about to burst We are not temporary souls Holding fast in faith and standing in what we know And we know Love is on the way Dangerously safe Known, unknowing in this want and wait I watch and wait Painful in this place Die to live and pierce the hurt with grace We're all bleeding grace We are tethered to the earth Holding breath for heaven like balloons about to burst We are not temporary souls Holding fast in faith and standing in what we know And we know Love is on the way Tossing like the sea, we are in too deep When will we see that everything is more than what it seems On our knees, on our knees We are tethered to the earth Holding breath for heaven like balloons about to burst We are not temporary souls Holding fast in faith and standing in what we know And we know Love is on the way (Your love is, the way, Your love is, the way) Love is on the way (Your love is, the way, Your love is, the way)
6.
Torn Asunder 04:21
I'm not gonna let this go You will have to wrestle me down before I do I'm not sleep through this tonight You think I'm so delicate But I've been wrestling the same old demons my whole life I'm not gonna lose the fight Let's you and I Grapple in the night until you bless this life Let's you and I Grapple in the night until you bless this life I'm not gonna miss the way you tore me asunder I'm not gonna dress these wounds Let them scar me forever I used to believe that all I had to do Was hold a bullet down Take a hit, push it back, and make believe I thought it was so damn easy Fake it till you even fool yourself I've taken to bleeding inwardly Let's you and I Grapple in the night until you bless this life Let's you and I Grapple in the night until you bless this life Let's you and I Grapple in the night until you bless this life I'm not gonna miss the way you tore me asunder I'm not gonna mince these words Cut my teeth on the candor This is my new name This is a new day I will lay my head on a stone You will fill me with dreams, with promises I will climb into your arms Fall into your love like a child, like a child, like a child Ohhhhhh Hold me down, hold me Hold me down, hold me.... I'm not gonna miss the way you tore me asunder
7.
Divers 06:02
The divers dive beneath the surface Hunger for the great unknown Their heaviness with drive them deeper Fearless against the noiseless cold Oxygen above their heads Like halos rise And then they break open To ocean skies And we keep on breaking We're in a tangle of transgression Philosophizing in the dark Each in our own isolation Only love can penetrate the heart "But in the desert darkness one has found me Embracing me he will not let me go Nor will I let him go whose arms surround me Until he tells me all I need to know And blesses me where daybreak stakes its claim With love that wounds and heals And with his name" And I keep on breaking And I keep on breaking Quoniam tu solus sanctus, Tu solus Dominus Gloria
8.
The roof is gone and the rain gets in We hold ourselves in our dying skin I used to know the sacred words But when I sing now my lungs burn All the saints surround us But the glass is stained All their empty eyes are Holding back the pain Colder than the stone They carved into your name Colder than the daylight Spread across my shame The highest star and the deepest well We're somewhere in between

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released September 30, 2021

Written by Caitelen Schneeberger

Caitelen Schneeberger: Vocals, piano, guitar, hammer dulcimer, synths
Jeremy McDonald: Bass, Synths
Mike Riddleberger: Drums, percussion
Will Graefe: Guitars
Andrew Freedman: Piano
Paul Arbogast: Trombone
Duncan Wickel: Violin, Cello

Produced and recorded by Jeremy McDonald and Jonathan Seale at Mason Jar Music, Brooklyn, NY

Co-produced and recorded by Caitelen Schneeberger at BamBurrito Studios, Santa Fe, NM

Vocal engineering by Caitelen Schneeberger

Mixed by Will Hensley

Additional producer credits:
Heart In Remission- GZ Lee
Without You - Marty & Leslie Barab
Torn Asunder- Tamara Schiltz

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Caitelen Santa Fe, New Mexico

Caitelen is a singer-songwriter, worship leader, multi-instrument musician, recording artist, and producer. She has released 3 studio albums and 10 singles.
Caitelen’s music often confronts themes of beauty in brokenness and hope in seasons of suffering.
 When she’s not making music, Caitelen is a mom of two and ministry partner alongside her husband who pastors a church in Santa Fe, NM.
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